STARTING OVER AT DAY ONE
I'm counting from zero again. The zero. Is that me? Am I a zero? I am a zero.Intoxicated by the madness. Emptiness is loneliness and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is Godliness and God is empty, just like me.
I need some advice from you guys. I need some help. I'm stuck here and I don't know where to go. What should I do next? If you were me, what would you do right now? Where would you go?
I've been spinning for such a long time. But spinning in the same place, going nowhere. I know where I am. I know that people like me. People tell me I'm a big deal, but I feel nothing. I just feel empty, thoughtless and so damn tired. The spinning doesn't feel like it's going to stop any time soon.
I don't feel like killing myself...but I'm not gonna lie.. I've thought about it before and it justs seems so easy.
I need a change. I need something to happen. I'm asking for your help:
If you were in my position right now, what would you do?
I need some advice from you guys. I need some help. I'm stuck here and I don't know where to go. What should I do next? If you were me, what would you do right now? Where would you go?
I've been spinning for such a long time. But spinning in the same place, going nowhere. I know where I am. I know that people like me. People tell me I'm a big deal, but I feel nothing. I just feel empty, thoughtless and so damn tired. The spinning doesn't feel like it's going to stop any time soon.
I don't feel like killing myself...but I'm not gonna lie.. I've thought about it before and it justs seems so easy.
I need a change. I need something to happen. I'm asking for your help:
If you were in my position right now, what would you do?
posted by Lindsay "Skinny" Lohan @ 12:31 AM
18 Comments:
Girl, you got to get yourself together. You're much to important for the world to die. Lol.
I know this has to be a BULLSHIT blog.
Firstly, you'd think an actress would be able to spell better. For all the money they make you would think maybe a little better self-expression is in order. Secondly, only someone extremely immature and ignorant would write on and on about such stupidity. I mean really, who really gives a shit. I watch the movies, I think some actors/actresses are truly gifted and very well-grounded people. Others, like this one here, could use some good mothering and maybe even a good whack on the ass by a PARENT figure - not "today's sex toy". Some self-pride is recommended since a real woman recognizes that what she has is a true gem and it is only to be given to someone who has EARNED it by treating you like a lady - not a cheap fuck. Those can be got for $5 on any corner of any seedy town. So, if the person writing this blog wants to think and act as though having money makes them more important or better or excuses their stupidity - I suggest they re-think things. A $5 crack whore is a $5 crack whore no matter the name, sex, religion or even INCOME of the individual. If you act like a cheap whore that's what you will treated like and that's what people will think of you - and you can't pretend NOT to care.... isn't that what the whole anorexia crap is all about? Isn't that why drugs and rampant sex are invloved? Doesn't anybody realize that only a super low self-esteem does this? The real Lindsay Lohan was cute as a child (even with the freckles) but I think even she knows that freckles aren't quite so cute when you're 30 and that her career could be over if she doesn't straighten up and fly right. All the plastic surgery in the world can't fix a fucked up head, especially wqhen the little fucked up head thinks it knows best! Oh, to be young and stupid!!!!!
Dudes, give the girl a break!
And Lindsay, when I'm in trouble I always say to myself: "there are always people who are worse of than me" and when you think about it then you realize it's true... Just turn on tv and watch the news. And then you feel like "hey I'm not that fucked up after all, I can do this!" Try it and let me know :)
Greetz,
Thomas
A worried fan from Belgium
mail: triangle17[at]gmail.com
I would go see a therapist if I were you. I don't usually condone such things, but you need to sort out some of these issues and stop running from them. You're gonna end up dead whether you wanted it that way or not.
LL,
You fucked up. It happens. This could be the deal breaker with future contractual obligations. It really doesn't matter how guilty or innocent you are, the public has already judged you.
There is a bright side, L. You are not the fist one of us to go through this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Almost everyone goes through a fucked up phase, only yours in on camera, which only compounds the problem.
The future is in your hands, and only your hands.
If I were you....
1) Stay out of the spotlight for a while...say...6 months to 1 year.
2) Do not grant any interviews or any more emails to Axcess Hollywood.
3) When you are on camera going in and out of rehab/court, look fairly remorseful. Do not smile and wave. Don't just run in with your head down, just walk with a sort of confidence, but not cockiness.
4) Take up a cause. After your 6mo/1yr out of the camera, find something you believe in like children's hospitals, women with cancer, rehab organizations, aids, world hunger, etc.... See if you can get a hold of someone who has a great reputation like Bono from U2 and make some philanthropic public appearances...dinners, concerts, giving money, visiting the sick, etc.
5) Go on tour!! Princess Diana after her divorce with Prince Charles brilliantly went on tour worldwide. She made appearances everywhere, at benefits, bookstores, parades, etc.. What you are accomplishing here is having the public fall back in love with you!
6) By this point, trust me, you'll be back!
May the wind be at your back, LL. You'll make it, the public is very forgiving. You have to give them the appearance of change. Best of luck!
LL continued...,
...Hey, one more thing.
The bottom line is, all fun and craziness aside you have to ask yourself one question..
If it all came to an end right now, how would you like to be remembered?
Use this as your starting point.
i dont think lohan is much of an anorexic as much of a cokehead. and here it says shes not an addict, which she obviously is? you can be in denial but not that much of a denial. i know, ive been there with both coke addiction and anorexia. but shit, who ever is writting this, if your trying to live your life vicariously through lohan, look at your motives. where do you want to end up in life?
locked up in prison or rehab?
or buried six feet under from starvation or overdose.
i know plenty of people who have overdosed on drugs, and i know a girl who has died from anorexia. so this shits nothing to play with. lifes not a game.
its tough being young, especially if your a girl. if you wanna talk my myspace is myspace.com/skankerton
DO THE WHOLE WORLD A FAVOR AND KILL YOURSELF. EVERYONE IS TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT YOUR DOPE-SICK SELF.
Behave normally,because you're just a normal person.People like you doesn't mean anything,maybe they just like to see your news.
If I were you,I'd just give some money to the society and help poor people.
it's afake Lohan blogger. that is what i think. i really think the bloggers are the LIQUIDGENERATION guys.
I have a bit of trouble giving you a break after reading your bashes on appearances. I suppose I feel a bit protective of those you attack, and do assuming with, which you claim you don't like done to you. I'd suggest not spending so much time around arrogant folks, not so much time seeking fun so much as knowledge. Seeing bones isn't beautiful to me. I'm skinny and not proud. I don't insult others for being fat either. Why insult? To raise your self confidense? Is that really necessary? Loneliness will come from being a sarcastic, insulting, opinionated person in my opinion.
I doubt you are who you say you are but even if not, LL will maybe see this site and shut you down for the insults you've given her.
If you are her, you'll grow up someday and see that everyone (even you) can be an idiot but we don't have to be told that now do we? We all make mistakes. It doesn't necessarily mean we are idiots, does it? Show some intelligence, I beg of thee. You must be smart in there, maybe you'd rather be attractive and popular with other sarcastic insulters? I say the answer is within.. DEEP within. Value life, not just your own or your offspring.
Someday, probably quite later, you may find what many in this world know to be reality.. I actually feel sorry for most who become well known. The pressure drives them into total phony-hood. People lose who they really are.
Then fans lose themselves in what they want to be. I grow bored and read.. to become more depressed over society.
What do you want with your life? To be known as a .. w**re? Drunk? Drug addict? A b**ch? I hope you don't take pride in those titles that many have made for themselves.
As for Paris, I may not like her what so ever but I thought those pics looked just fine of her. I think your faves look like they are sick.. very sick.
That is not sexy to me. I know opinons are something everyone has but healthy is attractive to me. I'm underweight. I'm at 95lbs 5'3" and have not changed for many years. My guy is faithful to me for 7 years now. I'm in the mid 30's.. (see one of your first blog entries) and I may not be totally proud of my past, like you I hope, but I strive to better myself (exterior sure, but also my personality) all the time. It's a never ending battle.
I really hope you will do the same.. Look for the best you can be and I don't mean AT IT either.. I mean best you can be to make a name for yourself minus any shame or regrets!
If you don't.. No telling what will come of you. I really hope the best for you, and I don't mean popularity and riches. 10,000 can be made but that doesn't make you anyone!!! but wealthier.. and that is great.. but not all there is to life..
You can be in control of your life and be modest somewhat, decent and still be cool. You should know if you are worth more than just being used and you are if you decide to be.
I really hope you settle down with those darn hormones and fly by night judgements..
It wouldn't hurt to listen to older folks than you are, or are you jealous of their peaceful and content lives?
I really don't understand why some folks just convince themselves of lies when they are younger.. though I do at the same time. We've all been young.
I would hate to be unable to enjoy my relaxing evenings, my family, my boring tv shows.. The hugs I get from my mom and my son, my fiance. My family loves me, my friends accept me. I don't have to pretend to keep any of them and I like it this way. I don't have to hide from media :D :D And my life is mine to live..
Oh but wait.. you asked "what did you do today?" haha. NOTHING! But I have saved animals.. I've also donated a few dollars (not wealthy like you) to funds who'll help people.. other than myself!
I take care of my family and friends, provide counsel to them. I've lived through things, I've overcome drug addiction! :o Worse stuff than what you crave now and all by myself, no one held my hand. Can you say you've done that? If you don't want others to challenge you, don't challenge them. If you don't want judgement, don't judge. You wanna lose weight and die.. I suggest against that. Eat healthier foods! Veggies!! Pasta! You can be toned and healthy, but not anorexic (sp?).
Besides, you'd kill your immune system! Sexy is more than skin deep! I mean that.
If you've read this, know I hope things straighten out for you, as well as for anyone who has potential to make a difference (that matters) in this world. Small things matter, too! It does add up. Do what you can to make a difference and I mean not designer jeans.. or perfumes or all that fad crap. I mean something deeper, something that is healthy.. Hang in there and keep searching.. you'll find yourself.. it will just take time, your mutual enemy and friend. Ego, mutual friend and enemy. Lose the ego trip, gain a positive outlook and you get a well rounded woman.. with a little work of course. ;)
Do whatever is right for you. . . it may or may not be your time.
Stand strong!
-jer
http://www.thezerogroup.com
People...
Are you retarded?
You really can't see that's a 'Liquid Generation' blog?
Made for fun?
Made with sarcasm?
Made to made some people laugh?
Yeah..., most of you REALLY is reaterded...
Somebody needs to kick your ass and knock you down a peg. I don't care who the f*** you are, you are an idiot. Get over yourself.
you are just overconfident,but i dont understand why.
you are so fat compared to those girls in the pics,seriously.
If your depressed that people call you bad names then just ignore them. Your you, do what you want. The media bad mouths Celebrities for profit. Sex sells, and you're making a living by selling sex. No problem with that. Just know that most people think the same way and are on your side. Also, don't die, it's very foolish to die b4 your time. You only get one life and your already luckier than many. Your rich and sexy, what more can you ask for?
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