I Think I'm Going To Have To Give Rehab Another Shot
So as you probably heard by now I got in a car wreck early this morning around 5AM. Yes, I was drunk. Yes, I had trace amounts of cocaine in the car. Yes, I managed to get the other drugs out of the car before the police arrived.
And Yes, I am going to rehab.
In my 20-years on this planet I say I've led a pretty full life. I'm one of the most well-known actresses in the world. I've made countless numbers of cash doing things like modeling, attending parties, and just being myself. Myself is what made me who I am today: the person you love, respect and look up to.
But I realize I am causing me and those I love a lot of heartache.
I could have killed somebody today. I could have killed myself, or worse, gotten paralyzed like Christopher Reeve, and the died. My Mercedes is wrecked, but I guess it's okay because I could just buy a new one. Trust me, I have the money.
I don't know whether to say I'm sorry or what. I mean, who am I saying sorry to? My fans? I bet you guys like it when this happens. You and the media love it when I fall, cause then you get to kick me...and damn if you all don't kick me hard sometimes.
Should I say sorry to my parents? My dad doesn't care. And Dina my mom? I'd love to tell you where she was this morning but don't want to get the cops involved even more.
There are so many times when I know exactly where I'm going in life, but then in an instant it all comes crashing down, or into the bushes, literally. Nothing is ever in the middle. My life is never even. It's a series of really jagged edges. Just one extreme to the next. I don't even know if I like being in the middle...i'm not sure normal is for me. I guess that's why I do cocaine because I like the extremes. An old counselor of mine says it's near impossible to live in the extremes because eventually you'll burn out or explode. Is it weird that both sound exciting to me in their own way?
Damn what I am doing and where the hell am I going?
And Yes, I am going to rehab.
In my 20-years on this planet I say I've led a pretty full life. I'm one of the most well-known actresses in the world. I've made countless numbers of cash doing things like modeling, attending parties, and just being myself. Myself is what made me who I am today: the person you love, respect and look up to.
But I realize I am causing me and those I love a lot of heartache.
I could have killed somebody today. I could have killed myself, or worse, gotten paralyzed like Christopher Reeve, and the died. My Mercedes is wrecked, but I guess it's okay because I could just buy a new one. Trust me, I have the money.
I don't know whether to say I'm sorry or what. I mean, who am I saying sorry to? My fans? I bet you guys like it when this happens. You and the media love it when I fall, cause then you get to kick me...and damn if you all don't kick me hard sometimes.
Should I say sorry to my parents? My dad doesn't care. And Dina my mom? I'd love to tell you where she was this morning but don't want to get the cops involved even more.
There are so many times when I know exactly where I'm going in life, but then in an instant it all comes crashing down, or into the bushes, literally. Nothing is ever in the middle. My life is never even. It's a series of really jagged edges. Just one extreme to the next. I don't even know if I like being in the middle...i'm not sure normal is for me. I guess that's why I do cocaine because I like the extremes. An old counselor of mine says it's near impossible to live in the extremes because eventually you'll burn out or explode. Is it weird that both sound exciting to me in their own way?
Damn what I am doing and where the hell am I going?
posted by Lindsay "Skinny" Lohan @ 8:20 PM
7 Comments:
You just keep finding your way. Everything you do leads to the right answer. Eventually.
omg I love your blog! really awesome! keep the good work "skinny bitch" ;-)
LL,
I've been where you are. It's like playing with some kind of crazy fire. It's wonderful to watch, but you have to realize the dangers. The problem is, when it's over, it's really over. What will we have then?
I believe in having fun. There's nothing like the extreme, and everytime I get "the band" back together we're right back into it....even at 30.
The problem is, you can never go back. Circumstances change. All the fun now is in chasing the old times, which seemed much more fun in my memory than they really were.
Best of luck, L. I hope you find what you are looking for. I hope you develope the ability of control. Don't end the fun, just stay in charge; keep out of the mercy of others....and I'm sure we'll all laugh about this some day.
Peace and Love,
Tempe, AZ
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hey lindsay what's up??? i guess much ah??? can i ask u something?? WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH U girl??????? have u lost your mind???!!! wake up you 're a kid's idol for god's sake!!!!! 1.extra wild parties 2.smoking 3.rehab 4.drugs 5.games with knives!! 6.cut your self?!! (7.lesbian stuff and body problems?? come on u look fine!! and if u continue doing these things u 'll never lose weight!!!... why all these linds?? u re not satisfied with your hollywood LIFE????!! what has happened to u??? u re so young don't destroy your life like that!!!!!!!!! talk to someone that could help u!!!! U NEED IT!! (that's not bad!!)but please change this whole crap thing!! do it for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-( consider this... yesterday my 7 years-old cousin (who's mad about u!)and i decided to see your latest news (coz u 're our fav or at least used to be!..). the thing we saw is that...http://lindsaylohan.celebden.com/ after this what exactly am i supposed to say to a 7 years-old kid about it's fav singer and actress???!!! ( can u just tell me coz i really don't know??!!!!!!!) :-(
if your latest situation is because of your 'MOM' and some of your friends i think u should stay away from them...!!! (u know that deeply their lives are miserable don't u??!!)...................
your only one of the worlds best known actresses because you suck so much. I dont know where you learned to act but damn you should go back and learn again. And the only people who look up to you are the 7 year old girls who dont know any better. No one respects you. And stop making it
look like your parents are the reason for all this. I never had a dad he got shot bye a crack head and I'm just fine. Your going down the wrong path and your going to end up killing someone soon and then your everything that youv done that led up to that moment is gonna hit you and its gonna hit you hard.
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