I AM NOT GOING TO WORK UNTIL I AM GOOD AND READY

Hey ya'll...greetings from the Coffee Bean on Sunset and Fairfax. You know who I saw here recently? That fat gay Perez Hilton of PerezHilton.com....he works here....he looks a lot uglier in person. Like half pig / half puerto rican. That is one serious combo...but there he was typing away on his laptop in the back of the coffee shop there....I think I got out of there without him noticing me....

...and here I am with my laptop. The Wonderland Rehab Center lets me go out during the day, and I come back when I want to. Sometimes I just sleep at the Chauteau at night because it's home. The trouble starts when I hear the clinking of glasses....then my blackberry blows up...and then before you know it I'm having the urge to slide down to Hyde to be with my friends...

Does alcoholic urge ever go away? Is there ever going to be a moment when I don't see a vodka ad and say, "damn, I really would like a drink."

Only time will tell....

Same goes with my eating. I haven't eaten a lot today. Even at this coffee shop the only thing I'm having is a small tea...

During my skinny days that's all I drank was tea. Tea and soup, tea and soup. Nothing gets you skinnier, girls, than tea and soup. It will make you crap, it will make your skin nice (unless you smoke a lot), and it just makes you feel lite....

But then you can do too much of that..which I did....

BUT DAMN....EVEN ME WRITNG ABOUT IT MAKES ME WANT TO BACK TO THOSE DAYS!!!!!! WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

My friends want to bring me to Jerry's Deli tomorrow for breakfast...which I'm totally scared of because they have the fattest omlettes EVAH!. Good stuff, but damn, might as well eat a whole cow......

Need to stop writng about food...

Need to stop seeing alcohol ads...

I'm out.

LL